Hello again. Yes, I decided to go outside my norm and post more than once a month:) Actually, I was thinking that posting at least once a week would be my New Year's resolution. It's the thought of New Year's that got me thinking about my next post. Isn't it interesting how when the New Year rolls around it causes us to think about where we've been and where we're going? I really don't like New Year's that much, a lot of hype for one night that's really the same as most other nights. Anyway, I digress, what I'm trying to say is this season I'm extra amazed at where my life is in comparison to where I thought it would be.
In June 2007, after my second season coaching in Santa Barbara, I stood next to the track at the NCAA National Championships in Sacramento, California watching the finals of the steeplechase. I was amongst some young, and many seasoned, coaches lined against the fence, pacing back and forth, making small talk, figuring out who's taking the next big job opening, what PAC 10 or SCC jobs would be available, and who would rise to be the next collegiate track powerhouse. As I stood there, in the extreme heat on the fourth day of the meet, I realized, I would much rather be home then at this meet, putting on my fake arrogance, and trying to act more confident then I felt to avoid any indication of weakness to my male counterparts. Yes, I loved track. Yes, I loved to coach. But NO!, I couldn't make it my life. I could care less about winning a national championship if it meant making the team and my athletes "success" my one and only aim in life. I realized this drive to be the best coach in Division 1 athletics had to by my number one goal in life to survive in this unusual world. Again, I remember thinking, that if winning a national championship took me away from my family, away from caring about the person behind the athlete, then it wasn't' for me. If I didn't want to be number one in this career, maybe I just wasn't meant to be a D-1 coach. "I just want to help people.", I thought to myself.
Fast forward to this evening, I got a call from my friend J. I'm working with her to get back on track with her physical health. After years of taking care of her family and friends and neglecting her own health, her body has taken a beating. A few weeks ago she was sitting on her couch with the simple desire to "not be in pain all the time". With the knowledge I am gaining at the Physical Therapy office, I'm working with J to get her body to a piont that she can enjoy an active quality of life without the fear of pain. So, this afternoon after our morning session, I got a message from J "Shoulder pain?! What shoulder pain?!!" J couldn't wait to tell me that she is feeling amazing. The best part of it all...I feel more satisfaction in hearing her joy and excitement then if I had won a National Championship. Sometimes the victories that seem small and unnoticed by the rest of the world, are not so small after all.

